will you?

Disappointed? Yeah.
Angry? Yeah.
Sad? Yeah.
Excited? Yeah.
Happie? Yeah.
But yet, i'm speechless.

I wasn't born to make people happie, but why do i care so much whether they are happie or not.
Every since u came into my life, i find it comfortable n it feels good talking to you.
Are u gonna leave just like the previous one?
Are you gonna do the same thing?
I'm scared.
I have this fear.
And it seems that what i fear of the most gonna happen soon.
Prove to me that i'm wrong.
Show me.

You make it all better.
You bring smile to my dull day.
You accompany me during my sleepless nights.
You bring laughter to my days.
You talk to me.
You are great.

Will you leave?
How do you feel?
Why do i even care when you said you were unwell?
Just the normal care n concern as i always show to the others?
Why? 
Why did we even get close?
Why did you even cross my path?
What if things change again just like before?
Are you gonna live?
Question after question..
How do i get the answer?
Why didn't you take the initiative ?

does anyone even care? Emo much.

Alot of thoughts going thru my mind..
After keep on tryin for millions of times, people do get tired isnt it?
I'm supposed to b asleep, since an hour ago..
Yet, i just felt like being pull down, deeper n deeper to this unhappieness of life.
As much as i try to be happie, people start to take it for granted.
My effort put in to make this family keep going, yet people starts to give up in it.
Where r u guys now?
Given up?
Can't be bothered?
Why?
Is it that easy when you said u dont care?
Why can't i do the same?
Exams in 2 days time, but do you even care?
Do you even care about how i feel?
Why can't i just have a normal life like others?
Ever thought about how many times i want to end this whole freaking life?
Ever thought of how much i have kept inside within me?
Ever thought of how long have i hold on to things that i shouldn't?
Ever thought of how much hurt i'm suffering coz of what you have done?
Ever thought whether i'm happie or not?
Is this what you call home?
Is this what you call family?
Is this what you call happiness?
When its just full of sorrow, sadness, unhappieness, selfishness, couldnt care-less people. 
I'm sick n tired of this.
When you need me, you ask for me.
When you need me, you order me around.
When you dont need me, you blame me for every single stupid thing you can come out with.

Why did you even bother to bring me to life?
Why am i even born?
How long more will this go on like now?
How long more do i have to go through this all alone?

JESS.

DEAR JESS..
SORRY YEAH.
DONT MEAN TO DISAPPOINT YEAH, I KNOW U ARE IN ME. ;(
AAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH....
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY EITHER..
FEELING SO BADDDDDDDD RITE NOWWW.. ;( ;( ;(

DAD.

I MISS U, DAD.
THOUGH U MIGHT NOT KNOW THIS.
THOUGH WE ARE NOT CLOSE.
THOUGH WE DONT MEET OFTEN.
THOUGH WE ONLY TALK TO EACH OTHER ONCE IN AWHILE.
THOUGH U ARE NOT ALWAYS THERE FOR ME.
THOUGH U DONT PROVIDE FOR THIS FAMILY.
THOUGH U ARE LIVING ALL ALONE NOW.
BUT STILL, I MISS U.
I HOPE U ARE DOING GREAT THERE.
ARE U MISSING ME TOO?

FATHER'S DAY IN 2 DAYS TIME.
MISS U DAD, HAPPIE FATHER'S DAY IN ADVANCE.

; When I miss you, I don't have to go far ... I just have to look inside my heart because that's where I'll find you.

MST, PRETTY SOON.

MST COMING PRETTY SOON..

ARRGGGHH!

JUVE, USE UR TIME WISELYYY!

N YEAH, I'VE BEEN TALKING TO HIM..

N HE IS EASY GOING, I GUESS. 

WILL THIS LASTS?