eventually.

i'm getting sick of all this, seriously.
ever consider my feeling?
of course you don't right.
all those threatening.
all those quarreling.
all those stupid little things.
don't you get sick of it?
i do.
aaaaaarrrrrrrrgggggghhhhhhh.
i want to scream out loudddd!!!!
why..
why..
why..
yeah, u said it as though i cant be bothered with it.
u said it til its so indifference.
u said it til i'm so heartless.
seriously, ever consider my feelings?

i really hate u.
the day, ever since u came to my life, oh well,u are not part of it okay.
nowadays i cry too often, i get sick too often of all this.
why bother about me then?
seriously, can we like just end all this?
sick of you.
seriously.
arrrggh!!!!!!

as much as i want to say that i'm not affect by it, i still cant.
just as i feel a little grateful for things are getting better, i was wrong.
just as i feel a little better with the fact that i won't be seeing you already, i was wrong.

i get upset so often that sometimes i don't even know why i'm holding on so much.
i get angry so often that sometimes i don't even know why i got so worked up.
i'm feeling so weak when i know this is my strength.
i must hold on.
i can't give up.
i'll get better, i'll feel better.

i'm feeling so sick.
yet, i still believe things will get better, eventually.