I'm back from Church few hours ago. Home alone again, while mom n sis are at bugis shopping. ;( i have CA for Cost tomorrow (i guess i've repeatedly said this for don't know how many times this few days already).
I know You know, Lord.
That i'm still struggling day by day to let go. It's difficult.
But I believe, U know the best, U will always give me the best.
I've got no idea what's in him, i just simply can't forget him.
He crosses my mind, every single day, despite us not in talking term for don't know how long already. At first, i thought it'll be better if we don't communicate, so i'll forget about him even more faster than that but inwas wrong.
You can't control feelings. Is this what do you call "True Love"?
But what's "True Love"?
Not expecting a return from him, yeah, i don't. I just hope that he is happy. :)
Though it hurts. Do you know God, Since that day, things started to change, people thinks that i was drowning my sorrow by crying, but they were wrong. They didn't know that this hurt more than that.
That torturing feeling, killing me from the inside, when i know i'm hurt but yet i can't cry it out. I wanna cry it out to make me feel better, but i just can't.
I don't wanna to hold on to you, i don't wanna to make you feel guilty, becUse you do not have to. The problem lies on me and not you.
But yeah, i still ask myself "what webt wrong?"
Not all love story ends with a happy ending.
Though people around me may leave me but i know You won't, God. I miss the time when me n him text or chat about every single thing under the sun, every single day. But not to worry, i have You now, God. When i'm lonely, i'll just write to You.
Thank you, God.
with lots of love,
Juveline <3
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