About everything.

Dear God,
I'm on the way to li yen ii's house, my aunt. Kinda reluctant to go, as i'm not close with my relatives. We are like world apart. I wasn't playing or joking when i told sis n mom that i don't wanna go. I've the rights to decide what i want in life, isn't it?

Just now i cried in my bathroom. I didn't know why i cried either, i'm just really tired. Sick of all those chatterin around me, which i dislike.
About what mom re-married? Dad re-married? Continueing to study? Staying in s'pore or not? How good i was in sec sch? How i've changed? How much mom like bro more than us? About mom's health probs? About religion? About everything, really.

God, i know it's wrong when i started to think to end things. When all those scary thoughts start coming into my mind. Now i know why a lot of people commit suicides. Now i know why people end their precious lives. Now i know why people give up in life.

I'm really tired, God.