No words can describe how i'm feeling now.
I know You know.
You know the feeling you get when you tried so hard to make things at least a lil better.
The feeling when things are so hard yet you are still convincing yourself that it will get better.
The feeling when the results are just simply far from your expectations.
The feeling when you don't wanna disappoint the people around you but you just simply don't know what to do.
When you try again and again and again and again, all left in the end is "you got all tired".
Today i had Cost paper, i tried to prepare for it since the past few days. But the paper was such a killer.
Not enough time to complete it, careless mistakes right from the beginning, no time to check it, we barely have time to think. I guess the paper today is just like life, sometimes we've no time to think but we've got to act fast, we've got no idea what's the results but still we didn't give up and try to finish as much as possible til the end of time.
After the demoralising paper, the girls and i went to have ice cream at baskin robins at Clementi Mall. All we've got to do is to "like" the page on fb and get an ice cream voucher..
I had the "bombshell blondie", pretty sweet but i guess i'll need that to make me feel happie a lil today. At least something went right today that i got to spend a lil time with the clique. (i was rushing for my ITP briefing today, didn't even know that existed, not til my clique tried to contact me).
I'm pretty excited for ITP though, 8 weeks.
What should i wear for first day of work? Hehehe
I hope the people will be great and awesome ones.
But this 8 weeks gonna be the door to my future, it's gonna determine my future, i'll have a glimpse of what my future will be like..
Excited much, though scared.
Oh yeah, God.
Recently, my clique (class, the sims, sec school), we all seems to be drifting apart. Everyone is busy with their stuffs and we seem to be losing our "common" topics. Guess, everyone 's mood is not that good recently,
Just wanna them to know that I care for them though i'm not 24/7 beside them or constantly talking to them.
Considering, recently i've been having this laziness to reply or contact anyone on hp. Well, i'll still talk to them if they contact me coz when someone contact me that means he/she needs someone to talk to or even simply a listener, if not why would that someone call/text me at the first place right? :)
I welcome anyone who needs that "listening ear", feel free to drop me a text or call me if you wanna. :)
And yeah, always bear this in your mind, "YOU ARE NEVER ALONE". :)
I know i'm never alone too, coz i have You. :)
Oh yeah, i'm otw to Bugis now to meet mom n sis for dinner. Gonna look look see see for more CNY stuffs. :)
I pray that everyone may have a good break, a good celebration and i feel like having a meaningful celebration, gonna decide on this later on. :) feel like doing some volunteering thingy or at least, accompany the old folks or children or something.. I shall search about it when i got home. :)
Not everyone is as fortunate as some of us.
If can make a difference in others' lives, why no?
Just reached Bugis.
Thank You, God for this monday, not a good one but definitely has taught me a lot.
With lots of love,
J <3
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