2012.

Dear God,
This year, seems to started off kinda badly til now. Though i know everything has already been planned beautifully by You, but I really need all the strengths and courage to move on and face all this.

It's only like what, February. Yet, i've heard of 4 operations among my loved ones. Til now, i don't know why did You allow sickness to be in this world. Why must there be people who have to go through all those painful tough experiences?
Why must there be people who worry about whether they will pass through that tough battle and leave another day?
Why must there be people who left because of their sickness and leaving the rest with no hope to carry on?

Sickness.
Make the hopeful one feel helpless.
Make the cheerful one forgot how to even smile.
Make the happy one losing the strength to carry on.
Make the strong one loses the fighting power and ultimately gave up on themselves.

For all my life, i've been struggling with my mom's. Last week, i heard about J friend's opt. Yesterday was N's opt. Today i learnt to know about J Dad's opt. What's next?

You know the helpless feeling, when you already know about what's happening but you simply don't even know what to do. What can i do to make these people feel better? I can't do much, God. But i know You can. You are the greatest healer. You are our source of hope.

I pray for this people, God bless them and their families, their loved ones. Strengthen them, hold onto their hands always, Please God, Protect them.

I pray for those people out there, we may be strangers that have yet to meet. They may be struggling in their lives, with their sickness. God don't give up on them, give them hope to carry on their fights. Don't leave them alone.

When we are weak, You are the strongest.
When we are poor, You are the richest.
When we fall down, You will carry us up.
When we feel like giving up, You will be there cheering us up.
When we feel all alone, i know You will always be there for us.

I love You, God.

Tomorrow will be a better day.
Rainbow after the storm.


With lots of love,
J <3