Me. Change?

Dear God,
Results are out. But i've yet to get mine yet.
Tried checking it through hp, but the internet was too slow..
Should i check it at work later on?

But what if it affects me later on?
I don't wish for that to happen either but you know i just couldn't control it.
After each paper, every time i'll tell you that i have so called "tried" my est but deep inside i know i haven't.

I wonder where did the old juveline went to.
The one who doesn't really worry about studies but at least know what she's doing in school.
Is it the course?
Is it the people around me?
Or is it just me?
Me, the one who has change?
Me, the one who has turned arrogant?
Me, the one who don't rely on You anymore?

Bring me to the right path, God.

For now, i'm just gonna smile and pretend that everything is alright.

Some people cares, some just curious.