everything seems surreal.

Dear God,
recently i have think alot, wondering about anything that crosses my mind.

You know those moments when i start to ask myself, whether is all of this real? am i really here? is this really me? how amazing is this life You've given me, God.

just by looking at this cabin of train, each one of them have the lives of their own yet some of us are related and connected somehow. that's when the saying "the world is not so small after all", isn't it? it's so big as none have ever went to all the corners of the world yet we'll meet people we know once in awhile, unexpectedly.

how Great is Our God.
You're Great.

things do change, just that when we are busy with our own routines, we start to neglect other stuff and when we are back to our own track, we realise that we are growing apart. it's not easy to go back to how it used to be, so what now?
move on with my own life.

Today i have learned to accept it.
2 and half years ago, i started to like this guy, it's beyong my control. a guy who i once thought the right one, my Mr Right. but i was wrong.

"He may be my Prince Charming, hut i may not be his cinderella."

one mistake, change it all.

i'm glad that u chose to let it all cool down, things get more awkward after that though but it's a learning process for me to accept all this. not an easy one but i'm glad it happened. thank you for being sucha good person in my life, i know u didn't wanna things to turn out this way either, none of us want it. there'll be times when i wish things could get back to how it once was, but i was wrong. today then i learn to understand, we have to keep on moving forward and stop looking back.
though i miss those moments when we tease, talk about anything under the sun. i have learned to accept that things are different now.
if one day, u find your Ms Right, i won't be angry or upset or reluctant about it but instead i'll wish ya happiness. :)

finally a day, when i learn to accept this truth.

remember that day when we met unexpectedly at PS.
it was kinda, nah, very awkward.
it's like two strangers saying hi to each other. we both realised that. but no worries, it's a good start, at least we didn't pretend that none of us see each other.
anyway, before i end this, after all that had happened, You're still a good guy, never think that you are lesser than that.

Thank You, God.
finally i got over it. :)

lots of love,
J <3