whats next?

Dear God,
i know i haven't been updating regularly.. ;(
I have been stoning a lot lately, somehow.

Today is mom's appointment with the doctor again, thought they gonna choose the day for the actual operation date, but no.
I believe, all this postponing is good because You let it happen, God.
I do not know what's your plan is but I will trust You.
I surrender it all to You.

I guess the next question will be, "Should I go for SP Leo Camp?"
I still can't decide.
Yes? No?
History gonna repeat itself again, there will be this period where everybody else expects an explanation but I can't provide one because i do not know how to say or express it out.
I do not know how to put it into words.
after all I am the one going through it.
Not that i wanna all this to happen, after all, who wants?

Next week, mom will be going for another check up.
God, I do not know what's going on.
Have been thinking about the future, life after poly.
i wonder how it will be like…..

okay, shall go back to do Project.
guess its not the time to be emo nemo..
just gonna try my best to complete Claw project and exams….