9 more months.

Dear God,
first week of school is coming to an end! got back all the 4 papers results, not that good but not as bad as what i expected except for AFA Paper. ;(
u know the feeling, when u think u hve answered all the questions but yet u are not scoring it. surprisingly i did better for MA! which for the past year, my cost results is like shytzssxz. okay, it's a good thing anyway! ;)

Claw presentation is over, WP Project has been submitted too! next is Audit and MA Project! glad that mom is recovering well too! ;)

sometimes we fear of the end results but again, who knows how it'll turn out to be?

and i'm pretty sure that i'm so so so gonna miss my poly life! all the silliness in us, the laughter we shared, part of life that we have spent together, sharing and every single thing we have gone thru together. and whenever i thought of this, it'll constantly reminds me that we'll be graduating soon, 9 more months.

we all started off as strangers, not knowing anything even each other's names. but now, we are close as sisters, updating each other about our lives, laughing and crying together, hang out together, exploring this mini s'pore together.

it'll come soon, a time when we all have to part our ways and pursue our own future. :')

Thank You God for this poly life.
i'll not be using awesome because that word is overrated. but it's the best poly life i could ever asked for. ;)

With lots of love,
J. <3

she is a strong woman.

Dear God,
Thank You for Your never ending love, care and assuring me that Your plan is beautiful.

earlier on, 8am mom was pushed in to the operation theatre. nurses and doctors said it'll take around 6-7 hours for it. You know mom was scared of it. she wasn't sure about how the outcome will be, well, nobody knows.

few mins ago, it was raining heavily. then i received text from sis saying that the operation went well. call me superstituous or whatever but the rain stops and now we are reaching the hospital, the road and its surrounding is all dry.

it's just like how i'm feeling. started of with stormy kinda feel, anxious, scared, worried but You calm me down.

Thank You, God.

You're Great.

this morning when mom was brought down to the operation theatre, that last 30mins with her before the war started, i'll never forget that.
it was the first time we prayed together. Thank You, God.
I still remember vividly when she was against our belief, she got angry and all.

it's a good beginning.

and though I promised i won't cry, but yeah..
what's matter is mom gets well and nothing goes wrong.

Thank You for providing such a wonderful team of professionals, God.
i know it's the best ever that we could ever asked for.
I Thank You alot for that God.

Once again, Thank You God.
with lots of love,
J. <3

P.S: though i have motion sickness, this week won't be easy with the travelling thru and fro of hospital but still, nothing is more painful than what mom's going through. All of us will pull through this, together.

2nd week of hols

Dear God,
2nd week of hols is coming to an end soon and i'm gonna spend my last week mostly at hospital.
It's Saturday, i'm on my way for flyers distribution at Pioneer with barely four hours of sleep.

anyway, i got a lil angry though i don't have the right to last night. so at first he was asking all sort of ques, showing much interest and yet in the end he backed out. like seriously? every single time. where is your commitment, man? i just dislike people that tend to take things too lightly. its like "i don't feel like coming, i'm just gonna back out now." helloooo?! people plan things and you're about to mess the shyt up.

okay, so for me personally. i won't confirm things or join clubs or whatsoever if i'm unsure or can't commit. i'll ensure that at least 90% i'll be there whenever i can, unless i'm really tired or sick or whatever craps cropped up. and not, just back out whenever i wanna.

the decisions you make, reflects your damn characters.

So, back to the topic of flyers distribution. it's for the collection project next week. we're gonna collect newspapers, old clothes and small electronic devices. i know it's gonna be tiring but it'll be worth it. ;) ;)

apart from that, the SP Leo Camp has ended. 3 days spent with Cupcake! hehehe and we gonna have outing coming up! yay! ;) anyway, glad that Cupcake enjoyed the camp, guess it's more to the people though.

God, You know what i'm gonna say. i got angry over this camp thingy too. so much for saying you wanna do things your way? so much thinkin you've successfully did an awesome camp? you're wrong, do some soul searching please.
okay, i still prefer my last year camp! (i miss Pirateers eh!)

Thank God for the past week.
Lots of love,
J. <3

make full use of time.

Dear God,
it's Sunday! :) :)
which also means the end of 1st week of hols!
two more weeks to go!
i'm on my way to meet Jean for lunch at Maxwell! hehehe
initially, i wanted to be early but because i've been sleeping late recently, so to no avail no matter how early i wanna to sleep.

and i was woken up by Cousin's phone call early in the morning. i thought i was dreaming. lol! but nah, aunts came from indo and brought us rice dumplings made by her! hehehe

i still remember how there was once when mom wasn't in talking terms with her own siblings. glad that it's all in the past now, after all it's not easy to ignore people that are related with us by blood. because in one way or another, we are bonded together through flesh and blood.

today is the 10th, 9 more days.
i'm counting down when i don't even know it's a good thing or bad.
but still, it's the best choice for mom.

at some point in life, with all the couples all around, we'll have this tendency of wanting to experience it on our own. but then again, the timing does matters.

"What if He is my Prince Charming but i'm not His Cinderella?"

it's okay to be single, just enjoy it. it is God's way of saying that "He is saving the best one for us." :)

in this aspect, i've never blame God.
seeing how sis n bro are in their rs, i'm happie for them. well, i've great friends both genders and happie with my life. :)
i don't wanna repeat the same mistake that i made previously, well it's not worth it. but i've learned my lesson. :)
wishing both of us happiness! ^^

okay, back to reality.

yesterday, i went out with Jessica, my man! hehehe
went to bugis, shop and had lunch then went to town. shopped again, we bought almost the same stuff! well, we are couple after all! hehehe (i'm straight anyway. ;) ) then went to vivo had dinner with mom then head back home.

gonna make full use of my time.
Tomorrow will be the start of 3 days SP Leo Camp then gonna drown in project meet ups after that.

okayy, gonna enjoy myself today! ^^ we'll be celebrating Ci amel's bday too later on! YAY! :) :)

Thanks God for all your blessings.
The problems that make me grow.
The pain that i felt to make me a stronger person.

Lots of love,
J. <3

1234.

Dear God,
few days back, i saw this post on fb.
something like, "people make wishes on 11:11 while God listens 24/7."
which is true, some people wait for 11:11 twice a day or any auspicious hours and wish upon it.

anyway, i'm otw to meet jess! ^^
recently have been in mood swing mode, tired of staying at home but too lazy to go out either.
AND LEI CHA WILL BE COMING TO SPORE TOMORROW, EH NO TONIGHT! BUT WE'LL BE MEETING TMR! HEHEHEHE
Then SP LEO Camp on next monday til Wednesday! ^^
and That Giant is in my group! :O :O it won't be that bad right?
oh well.. gonna enjoy it still! haven't really experience the feel of a camper since i'm always part of the comm. hehehe

and it's getting nearer to that date.
gonna pray for the best and let You do the rest, God.

I'm thankful for every lil things, every single things that i have.
sometimes i may wish to have what others' have but then again their life may have their own probs too, they might want to be living in another's position. if you get what i mean.

okay, i found this few quotes. i love tumblr-ing. hehehe

Thank You, God.
Lots of love,
J. <3

bare your sole

Dear God,
Thank You for another day that You've given me.
Chillin' Saturday. :)

in the morning, i took part in this charity event called "bare your sole", together with class peeps and leo peeps! the hardest part was not to complete the walk but to wake up early in the morning! you know the decision making period that will make a difference. when the alarm rings, whether i choose to wake up or continue sleeping, going for the event or not, keeping my promise of going for it or not after signing up.

i'm really thankful for the peeps who came down today because it's not easy for them to travel all the way to Stadium mrt early in the morning, after the tiring past weekdays. the temptation of staying on the bed, i'm pretty sure of how it feels. but still, we've completed the 2.5km of bare footed walk! :) :) there were lots lots of minipedes and centipedes!!! i think
i screamed a lot earlier on! hahahaha

oh yeah, i was kinda angry when JC called me at 8am or so. as usual, he was overslept and i was upset because i asked lots of times whether he was sure he wanted to go for it, because he is not a morning person. but in the end, he did take the effort to make his way done! (Y) (Y) thank you for proving me wrong that at least that trust i have in u is not ruined! :)

after the walk, we went for lunch together and supposed to go for SA meeting but we were too dread for it. really super duper tired. feel bad for being irresponsible though but i really cant help it. somehow i have this feeling that there will be people who will be unhappie, complaining, judging, making assumptions. well, don't judge if u've never been in my shoes.

okay, i'm pretty tired alr, hopefully can hibernate til tmr afternoon. i've been deprived of sleep since last week, but my body doesnt seem to want additional rest. ~.~

tomorrow will be a brand new better day.

Thank You, God.
Lots of Love,
J. <3

His Timing, His Plan.

Dear God,
Thank You for the oxygen to breath up to this very second.
i know sometimes we human being tends to take granted things that are free because we think that we don't have to work for it, it's already there. but without You, God, we won't be alive this very second.

Today, i went to accompany mom to Mt Elisabeth Hospital. God, i know exactly how is mom's condition. how she chose to postpone it because of the risk. the fear in her about the outcome of it. i still remember when i got upset and angry, blaming You for it. I'm sorry. i was questioning You about the delay that You allow to happen. but i was wrong God for that, You have provided mom with the best doctors possible. I'm really thankful for that, Thank You God. may the op goes as smooth as possible as Your plan God, not mine.

It's the 3rd day of hols, and i'm otw to meet Edy for movie n dinner now! ^^
though we seldom meet up but it's good that at least we still keep on touch and try to arrange meet up once in awhile n chill! hehe

we wanted to meet since dont know when, like way before he starts poly life but i've interns. and when school term starts, we have yet to see each other but today finally we manage to find time to meet up, Thank You God! :)

and i'm praying for those who are still having exams. Guide them God in each and every paper. help them in their time management and their understanding of questions and at such that they can remember what had been taught to them and what they learned during revisions.

not forgetting the SP LEO Peeps in their preparation for camp. i'm happy that i can attend it because mom's op is after camp. Your timing is always perfect God. Never too early, Never too late. :) excited for it because i'll be a camper! hehe with the girls coming too! ^^

i know i have been neglecting them during the previous camp or other events because i've my own group to take care of or in charge of other stuffs. i'm gonna make full use of this three days! :) with the fact that we are graduating soon, i'm gonna make every moment be memorable possible, sweet bitter memory to be remembered.

Thank You, God.
lots of love,
J. <3